everything’s a-ok

I’m a terrible, horrible, no good, very bad blogger. I know. This is the first entry this month, and last month I posted only twice? It would seem like I don’t have much to say, wouldn’t it?

But I do have stuff to say! I have three topics I can write about at the moment. But I am too lazy to do so. Or maybe I’ve psyched myself up too much.

I don’t really like writing, as I’ve said many times before, and I guess it’s still the same. There’s no research involved, no grade hanging over my head, and yet I still don’t enjoy writing.

Oh, I have opinions. I like to share those opinions. But after I’ve done so, or maybe while I’m in the process of writing, I tire out. I don’t want to think of beginnings, and endings, and middles, and how to transition between everything! Which is ridiculous, because I’ve written persuasive essays since 8th grade, I should be very near a pro at BSing at writing, right? All that thinking poops me out. (As they say, GrC students don’t really do anything, ha. ha. ha…)

It’s much easier if I’m just relating events that happened (like my Disneyland entry, I churned that out in a couple hours), but then who wants to read about the boring things that go on in my life?

Right now I’m thinking of an entry about this letter I got from the White House (my family was very worried when I came home from work one day, “What did you get in the mail?”) which outlined something or other that our dear leader George W. Bush did to further the cause of saving our oceans! (“What could he possibly do?” you say? Just wait, I’ll write about it eventually.)

I’ve been planning to write that entry since August 13. I’d probably write it this moment, if I weren’t writing about something else entirely. What’s keeping me from writing is that it involves Bush, and the environment, and my feelings on both.

As I said, I’m opinionated, but when I’m really passionate about something my mind tends to move ahead of logical reasoning and I tend to write gibberish, or something close to it. So I feel like I’m just posting some weird rambling incoherent fanatical entry that people will pass by. (What people? Not like I get many visitors to this blog, other than spammers…)

If writing about what I’ve experienced and about what I think are out, then what the heck else is there for me to update with? I’ve toyed with the idea before but gave it up because I wasn’t sure how much disk space or bandwidth I was willing to give up. Now, though, I’m desperate enough to try it. I’m going to start up a photoblog! Well, technically. It’ll just be a feed from Flickr linked on my blog. Or maybe I’ll write short entries on my blog and link to the Flickr image. I’m not sure exactly how I’m going to do this.

(I’ve already got over 1000 entries on this blog, and my .sql file is over 4 megs, so I’m sort of finicky about posting short little quips on this baby, but I think I’ll have to get over that. Or maybe I’ll go back and forth. Post larger entries on blog, leave smaller ones on the Flickr feed.)

What really sucks though is that my camera is currently getting repaired so I won’t have it for about 2 weeks or so. (That’s another entry I want to write.) I’ll have to make do with some photos I’ve taken over the years, I guess.