It’s kind of frustrating, in art, I don’t feel like I can do the best I can. I just don’t understand how to make what I’m doing better. Am I just … not a designer? Or maybe having an 11-week design course is completely different from the 16-week color and design class I had at a community college.

Mm, lessee, Thursday night I went to bed at 10:30ish then woke up after 8:30 the next morning. I had very weird dreams. O_o Also couldn’t fall asleep for a while. So I had a headache for part of the day. I’m wondering if it was because I didn’t have caffeine, though. I didn’t have caffeine Wednesday on purpose, and I didn’t have a problem (other than feeling tired *snrk*). But I had a full night’s (almost?) sleep Thursday/Friday and I get a headache? Unfair. ;-;

Today I mostly worked on my art journal. Throw in some random computer use there and you’ve got my day. Oh, and I went with C to Best Buy and Borders and Circuit City. Best Buy and Circuit City C was looking for a Wii controller (no luck). Borders we bought Simpsons season 2 at 40% off, and I got the Post Secret book and The Tenth Circle both for 25% off.

Now I really should get to bed.

Little tidbits: I stood in line mindlessly waiting for a chicken sandwich during lunch. I went to the library three separate times today. Half the lights in the second floor are turned off, probably for money energy conservation, but there are also quite a few lights that have just plain died. I spent some of the time after art critique talking to a classmate. Woo, go me. :D

The Shining is getting interesting. I didn’t know there was a backstory to Tony! Then again, I’ve only ever seen the parts of the movie where the scary stuff is seen. Wooow, great plot device there.

The Count of Monte Cristo is a lot more convoluted than I remember. I still like the movie with Guy Pierce. I just consider them two different stories in two different mediums (of course, one gets a bit Hollywood-ized at the end, but what do you expect?). They’re both just so much fun! hee.

Oh yeah, this morning the nail of my left index finger tore off. x.x I was closing the trunk of my car. Now, my trunk door is a bit different than you’d expect. You don’t have to slam it down to close it or anything, it’ll close just on its own weight. So I was holding it up with my index finger and I guess I was more tired than I thought because I didn’t realize that I had it resting on my nail? Or maybe it slipped or something, I don’t know. But either way, it got torn off, and I was about to say “Ow!” when I realized that it didn’t really hurt. Just the tip got torn off (of my finger). But anyway, maybe I’m being grotesque talking so much about it.

Or maybe not. I’ve never had a nail broken on this finger before. I’ve had both ring fingers, my right thumb nail, and maybe my right middle finger? I’m not really sure. My finger doesn’t hurt, it just feels really sensitive, and I’ve got it covered in Band-Aids to remind myself that it’s sensitive area don’t do anything that’ll hurt it! Writing my notes was all right. But the problem arose when I got on my laptop … the Band-Aids block the heat that makes the touchpad work! Noooo!! Okay, so I use my middle finger. I’m used to that, in fact I do it quite often. I’m just finding out now though, how much I use my index finger. ahh! I feel a compulsion to use it, and my mind screams “awkward!” when I use my middle finger instead.

Now on to the continuation (end?) of that skip-a-night’s-sleep fiasco. I partly did it hoping my sleep schedule might right itself, but that just doesn’t seem to be the case. *looks at time* (Okay it’s not my sleep schedule that’s messed up; it’s me and my lack of any self-control!) I woke up this morning at 7 fairly easily, which is funny because usually from the time my alarm goes off (6:45) to about 7:20 I’m just rolling over in bed and going back to sleep. But then it hit me about 7:45 that I’m tired. boo. I decided to buy a 20 oz. Wild Cherry Pepsi soda, mostly because I was thirsty. But now I curse that decision, because I don’t want caffeine having been in my body as I try to fall asleep. grr.

I had two cups of ocha this morning. I thought that was enough, but … I was falling asleep in class. I finally did what Noelle did: write notes without knowing what I’m writing. XD So weird. For the most part I wrote stuff correctly.

I felt like apologizing to the professor for being so rude. But I didn’t know how weird that would be. mreh. I definitely probably got 1/2 on the quiz today. *blink*

Pretty much for the rest of the day I watched Boogiepop Phantom and drove C around. BP is getting interesting now. Still don’t know if it’s any good.

From about 4:30 to 8:30 I slept. ^^;;; Didn’t eat dinner. I dunno, I don’t like eating so late. Now I’m going to bed.

Let’s see … nothing much interesting happened over the weekend. I don’t think. Monday I went to my 9:00 class but remembered an hour before that it was cancelled. XD; Still had lab tho. In lab we learned how to write Postscript. :o Postscript is a code?! (Well obviously, everything computer-wise is a code. But still, I didn’t think the code was that simple… A lot simpler than valid and accessible [X]HTML. *shifty eyes*) I found out I have Adobe Distiller at home, so I can do my project here! AHAHAHAHA! *going slightly crazy*

Today’s Tuesday? For a moment I thought it was Wednesday. Oh well. Probably just thinking ahead. Well. Had lecture. Had art critique. I said I was looking at my piece too long and couldn’t see what to fix, so people in class offered suggestions.

Uhhh … this is a very boring entry. Don’t I have anything else to say? Other than I also had art lecture about 6 hours ago? Oh yeah. Today.

Last night I … don’t remember. *blink* I think I was in bed by 10:30. I probably didn’t fall asleep until midnight. I think I woke up about half a dozen times during the night. One improvement from previous similar episodes: I automatically realized it was dark and went right back to sleep. (One time earlier this year I woke up and started getting ready for classes at one in the morning. *nods*) This morning I woke up at 6:45 so I could sign up for next quarter’s classes (yes I have a really late registration date *kills rhyme*). I had enough time to walk around my room to wake myself up (and prove to myself I wasn’t going to fall over) and pull on a sweatshirt and take out my retainers and make a cup of ocha. Woo, 15 minutes go by fast when you’re not awake!

So the three classes I wanted to sign up for I’m waitlisted for (woo) and I signed up for a fourth which is from 6-7:30 so I’m hoping I get a chance to drop it. *snicker* Won’t get permission numbers for the art class until next week. So I’ve definitely got … 6 units! Woohoo!

After that it was fun. Somehow it zoomed from 7 to 7:30 (giving Livejournal layout help in that time wasn’t a good idea, I suppose) and I had just enough time to make eggohan and get my stuff (including undrunken ocha) and get to my car, where I spilled a little of my ocha and had to run back up to get a rag to wipe off the back window so I could see.

Then when I got back here, I tried to take a nap, or at least rest my eyes for a few minutes, but I couldn’t settle down, I kept getting up. Having a cup of ocha then half a Dr. Pepper at lunch was probably the cause. Even now I’m still moving. O_o Or that may just be some weird … sleep-deprived, half-awake thing…? I don’t know.

Then from 5-ish to 5:35 I put up my new layout and tried fixing things (still don’t know how to make the date show up for every entry). Then ate dinner for 10 minutes before I left for lecture.

Came back, watched Gilmore Girls and Veronica Mars. Odd, but I’m thinking of the VM episode more than I am of the GG one. (I just started watching VM this season; it’s right after Gilmore Girls, and I don’t feel like going to bed or getting on the computer. This is pretty much the one night of television that I have. Other than random Mythbusters viewings on Wednesdays, but I usually don’t because Tuesdays and Thursdays are my heaviest days.)

Oh yeah, I got an A/A on my line composition. My teacher wrote on it, “sensitive and sensual.” O_o! Interesting.

So. Layout. Um. It’s Natalie Portman. I was just looking through the galleries at NP.com and thought these were layout-able images. I had a lyric or something to go with it, but I couldn’t remember it, so no text other than flimsysilence.net. I think I randomly picked the colors from the colors that were saved in my Photoshop from whatever project I’d worked on last. *laughs* I do that a lot.

So yeah. I should probably get to bed.

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“Bean stood on a table again.”

It’s a sign that I should go to bed now because I just find that hilarious …

(I always say, I don’t need liquor or drugs. Just deprive me of sleep or feed me too much sugar or both, and I can achieve pretty much the same effect.)

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Oh no! He’s climbing up on the table again! Shoo! No Beans allowed on the table! *laughs her head off*

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Okay now would be a good time to die because I could never own a home in LA (where I WANT to live) and have a good job with benefits and blahblahblah and I’m just gonna die from starvation ’cause my social security check will buy me jack shit. That’s called thinking of my future. ;b

So I have $29.54 in my checking (which is supposed to be for school and emergencies) and $8,6something in my savings (which is supposed to be for the rest of my college education). This winter I lost $600. Not including cash. And I wasn’t even gambling! :b

What’d I get? Christmas presents, the entire Sandman library XD, CDs, a new CD-player … that’s all I remember. Oh yeah. $67 on fs.net. The Sandman collection was probably about $200. Then $35 on … King of Dreams. I still need the companion, tooo. *rolleyes* Books. Manga. Music. I dunno. Now I’m going to spend the next six months putting that money back in the bank. Aren’t I off to a great start handling my finances?

Aaanyway … it was windy today. Is windy today. Fun. Especially carrying my art portfolio around … and I hope I never have to take another artsy class ever again.

But anyway … shall stop rambling pointlessly and start rambling pointfully … semi-pointfully … whatever. EVERWOOD IS ON TONIGHT! Wait, nevermind, it’s a sex episode … boring. Not like the other episodes weren’t boring either, but nyeh. Although I liked the Nina storyline … which is odd ’cause that’s the first time I’ve ever remembered her name … *blink*

Okay! Points(full): I got hosting for inangeling.net. I don’t have money for hosting for fs.net. Actually, I didn’t have money for inangeling.net either … but nevermind that fact. ^^;; So since I kinda give up my blog at the moment I’ma gonna point fs.net to a subdomain on inangeling.net. That means no hostees on fs.net. Sorry. I also just realized I only get one ftp account. ^^;;; WHOOPS!

I’m also debating whether I should put hotlink protection on inangeling.net again. I moved my Sailor Mars gallery back to Geocities. Yeah, I was overjoyed this weekend when I realized I hadn’t deleted the 100+ images when I moved. XP;; But I still have all my fanlistings on inangeling.net. And, well, I’ve never had a run-in with people taking stuff from me, but … I dunno, whatever.

Something else that made me overjoyed this weekend: I remembered my homestead account. :b Because I feel guilty hotlinking from my Comcast homepage (although I’m still doing it >b). Oh yeah. I have to put my moodtheme somewhere. @_@ Homestead has that f’kin annoying upload thing. Comcast, aforementioned guilt. Inangeling.net, that hotlinking thing.

Oh well. I’m tired. I should be studying for my anthropology midterm (part one) tomorrow but I dun care … I’m more asceered of part two. >_> Writing. *shudder* Ooh, Sic Transit Gloria! *grooves* … *ahem* Then there’s the econ test on Wednesday … I’m not very scared of that. ^^; Although I should remember to look at the study guide book tomorrow. Just to make sure. Oh crap. Now I remember. I forgot to buy scantrons. <_< Oh yeah. And I forgot to renew my student ID. ^^;;; I bet God is shaking his head and tsk tsking at me. :b

Yeah. I fell asleep sometime after 10:30 … then I woke up at 6:15 to use the bathroom, and them got another hour sleep … I was falling asleep in math. And not paying attention to my art instructor. “Closure WHAT?! What about closure?! Is this vital for my project?!” Hm … proximity … value? no … ^^;; simplicity … closure (which I seem to be unable to type) … and uh … thingie … all of which does nothing to clarify what I’m going to do for this project … oh well.

Sometimes when I step out of the car after driving I kinda wonder if I really am getting out of the car or if it’s some weird Homer Simpson situation where I fell asleep at the wheel and I’m really dreaming happily in the moving car while dragging a white picket fence behind me. ^^;;;